i've been alive for almost 19 years. but what have i accomplished? not much.
i was/is known for my anorexia in my immediate and extended family since i was 11.
today a relative is coming to visit. last time they saw me was a LONGGGG time ago. i'm 40 lbs heavier than i was before. what will they think? ugh. i hate this.

2 more days here until i go back to school. i can't fucking wait to lose.

Tried to post thinspo, but pictures dont copy&paste on xanga for macbooks. thanks apple. anyway this is my plan for the first three days when i get back to school

1/12/09 day 1: 500

breakfast: fruit cup, tea w. 1 equal

total: 100

snack: popcorn

total: 200

lunch: vegetables, fruit

total: 350

dinner: soup

total: 450

snack: 1/4 c bran flakes w/ 1/4 c skim milk

total: 500

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1/13/09 day 2: 500

breakfast: fruit cup. tea w/ 1 equal

total: 100

snack: apple

total: 180

lunch: vegetables

total: 255

dinner: soup&salad

total: 400

snack: popcorn

total: 500
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1/14/09 day 3: 300

breakfast: fruit cup. & tea w. 1 equal

total: 100

snack: small apple

total: 150

lunch: broccoli&salad

total:200

dinner: soup

total: 300

Just posted tips, trick, motivators, etc. Got to get back on track. Sick of recovery. It fucked me over to the max. I'm ready to do this.